I Need Blue

Honoring Maddisyn Colleen: A Mother's Journey of Healing After Losing Her Daughter to a Shallow Water Blackout

Jennifer Lee/Michelle C. Butler Season 4 Episode 11

After the devastating loss of her daughter Maddisyn Colleen to a shallow water blackout, Michelle opens up about her journey through grief and healing. In this deeply emotional conversation, Michelle shares the wisdom and kindness Maddi left behind, and how her untimely death became a catalyst for Michelle’s personal growth.

Candidly recounting the emotional turmoil of guilt and broken promises, Michelle reflects on her path through PTSD and the transformative power of community and creative expression. 

From ketamine therapy to meditation, Michelle explores unconventional methods of healing while building a community that supports those facing similar losses. Join us as we honor Maddisyn’s life, discover the lessons Michelle learned, and find hope in the darkest of times.


Her book, "Please Don't Say That Sh*t," offers a poignant and practical guide for those struggling with unhelpful comments in grief, providing insight into the healing process and the importance of a supportive network.

If you're in need of immediate support or help with thoughts of self-harm, please reach out to someone you trust or contact a mental health professional. If you're experiencing a crisis, I encourage you to call a suicide prevention hotline, such as:

  • National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (U.S.): 988

You don’t have to go through this alone—help is available, and reaching out is a brave first step.

Contact Michelle: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/michellecbutler11


To order "Please don't say that Sh*t!":
https://www.amazon.com/Please-Dont-Say-That-Sh-ebook/dp/B0CLL1DJXV/ref=sr_1_1crid=19R94WI81LAKP&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.RV8mOSMjcI0aKHqfj71ZqtMW_nP6NhIMI2bJCIQxEoWDKNvdISe5wMi8MyPGwrMjGKVdoXe97EUzLVA5Va-VtJBZ9xyBMhFrA2XWouFVmUU.BOYsXs7xl89u7LgR-o7SuH2UJo-gcpW_Q9SJ-0fxw7w&dib_tag=se&keywords=please+dont+say+that+sh*t&qid=1732303517&sprefix=please+dont+say+that+sh+t%2Caps%2C105&sr=8-1

To order "Befriending my Grief Monster":
https://www.amazon.com/Befriending-My-Grief-Monster-Navigating/dp/B0CVLMN4TL/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

To attend a healing session at the Center for Spiritual Care in Vero Beach, FL:
FB: https://www.facebook.com/CenterForSpiritualCare/

Connect with Jen:
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Website: https://ineedblue.net/
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Purchase  my book: Why I Survived:  How Sharing My Story Helped Me Heal from Dating Abuse, Armed Robbery, Abduction, and Other Forms of Trauma by Jennifer Lee
https://whyisurvived.com/

The background music is written, performed and produced exclusively by Char Good.
https://chargood.com/home

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